LIFE SUCKS

hate where i am at the moment

I had the perfect life 2 growen up children both with good jobs one a doctor the other an officer in the navy, a wonderfull husband a loving mum and dad i was doing a nursing degree .then bang my husband who was 55 died of a heart attack the day of his funeral ny mum took ill was in and out of hospital for a year i was the only family membre who lived close to my parents so whilst greving for my husband i had a very sick mun to look after and elderly father to support and try to study for my degree mum died a year after my husband 3 weeks after mum died dad took ill and died 6 months later. some how i managed to get my degree but cant get a job. i have a geanetic illness and at the moment cant for some reason get my medication i feel like shite all my friends think i am copping well i cant tell them the truth i an so depressed and lonely it is hard for me to get out of bed i put on a happy face to the world but some days i feel so alone i want to end my life