I know most people probably won't read this, but I need to get it out somewhere. I'm a 22 year old woman and am at my wit's end basically. Read through some of these stories and can say I do have it better than many people, but am experiencing emotional pain every day. I'm in a relationship that sucks and don't know how to get out of it - he is a total liar and can't keep his eyes or thoughts off of other women and humiliates me because of this. And then denies he ever looks for other women and guilt trips me, I'm the only one for him. BS. My job sucks, just filed taxes and was thinking I might get a good amount of money back from the peanuts I make because of tax deductions.. ended up owing 300. I have no friends anymore.. never had many. No one to turn to but family and my lying ass fake bf that I can't seem to get away from. Life is looking pretty bleak right now.
I feel like I really try only to be rewarded with crap in life. It's always been that way and I wish I could start things over.. go about things a completely different way.
I know things could be worse but I feel so stuck in trying to make them better. I don't know what direction to walk in, what schooling or career to try for (already tried a career counselor), who to trust romantically, who might make a decent friend. I pray and that's my only hope right now, that God will help lead me.
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you sound like a good person, you can do better than him, he doesn't deserve you.
I found your last sentence interesting, maybe God is bringing some tough times in your life so that you call on Him and give him your life? He did that to me a couple years ago. Do you know Jesus? He layed down his life for us on the cross. He died for our sins, he knows every pain man has gone through because he went through the worst physical and emotional pain a human has ever endured. To put it simply, he knows your pain. Life may look bleak in the present, but you cant look into the future, God can do awesome things with you if you let him. I would suggest joining a church, maybe join a bible group of some kind, make some christian friends, friends that will love and care for you no matter what.
Matthew 11:30 "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls For my yoke is easy and my burden is light". No one can satisfy you like knowing Jesus. He loves you with everlasting live, you cant out sin his love, he cares for you and wants a better life for you, he'll always be there for you, he'll never leave nor forsake you! Accept him as your lord and savior, ask for forgiveness of your sin and you'll be saved, you'll be apart of Gods family, one of his cherished children, he will provide for you. All this may sound cheesy, but when you truly know Jesus, it won't sound cheesy.
bless, may he help you, cherish you and provide for you. He promised to provide for our every need, we may struggle, but he will provide. "Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."
(Matthew 6.31-34 ESV
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