First of all , I know I don't have the worst life anyone could have. But lately everything has just been falling apart very slowly.And I want to get this misery out of my head. Ever since my grandparents passed away, a friend committed suicide, and I graduated high school, it's all been going downhill. Sadly, my father had a string of mental illnesses and I got everything out of that. Mental illnesses such as; Aspergers syndrome, Bi-polar, and ADHD , all at once. :/. My father left when I was just a baby. SO I've never even had a father figure my whole entire life. None really knows how hard it can be to live without a father or siblings your whole entire life.
Worst of all, my mother is a doctor , and she hardly understands anything about my mental health and such. She's also been threatening to kick me out of the house for weeks. I'm on meds, but I haven't been able to sleep at night for almost 5 years. I also always get the wrong diagnosis, which means I may not have bi-polar. When you have something like Aspergers though , it's very hard to learn normal,everyday things like ; learning to drive and maintaining a job on your own. But at least I'm going to college. Nothing has been looking up for the better. All I really have is my friends and my dog who seems to give a shit, more than my mom. I just wish all mental disabilities were eliminated. And until then, I will just say , why me god, why me?
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aAnd as that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.
God is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes, hardships and sins and make them into something completely new!
Give your life to Jesus and he will give you life.
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