I think our lives are so fucked up today.
Im sucessful, good looking, have a bunch of friends! And everyone thinks Im great!
BUT life has really got me down!
Im so lonely, I have no one in my life, I really cannot define between love and lust! sometimes I feel all love is only but a form of lust!
I love my parents but I dont think they love each other and are together only for their children. Which I dont want in my life.
I have never met anyone I turely love as in time of sickeness and health. (I can abandon anyone in times of distress) speaks of my character but this is true.
Lost a very good friend in 2007, and since have been so demotivated! But not work wise, since i put all of my time into work in order to avoid the lonileness. But sometimes on trips outside of Bombay I feel so lonely and really wonder why why, the powers above want this from me.
In 2007 i think i attained enlightment, i.e now i kinda understand everything and have an answer for everything. But I do not know why I am so sad? Is it genetic, life today, our shallowness blah blah.
I really hope that i meet someone I can love and be loved in return and not for the job or success I have earned on this planet. But I also feel this is not possible.
The day I die in a car crash it will not be an accident!! Sometimes on these long flights between Bomaby and brazil I feel I would be happier if the plane crashed into the ocean and I have no one to answer to!
I think age (Im 30) fucks you up...as time goes by you get sadder and sadder!
I have no immediate problems ..I have money and I know women who love me (or they say) but I really wonder why why has life got me down>
Ps -- About religion - All I know is no one knows anything and this is the only fact I know.