So April 2010 after almost 2 years of trying for a child and the stress of IVF my wife and i get the news we wanted to hear, she was pregnant, we was so happy, that is until 7 weeks later she miscarried, 9 weeks later she tells me our marriage is over and she wants a divorce, we stay in separate rooms while i hope to fix us, i couldnt. end of November i find out my wife is talking to other men on the internet, professing her love for others that are not me.
December 6th i move out into a grotty little apartment, just me and my dogs, a sofa bed, a coffee table and a rug.
December 22nd i have a heart attack (im 35 years old) and have stents put into my heart due to a blood clot in my aorta.
March 2011 go back to England for the 1st time in 5 years, the bipolar mother of my children is again a witch, makes life miserable, turns my daughter against me, and generally goes in for the kill. She is one of the reasons i left England in the 1st place
June 2011 i come home from work just like every other day, walk my dogs and sit down and notice my dog trying to be sick, this dog had been with me almost since i got to America, this was about 5:30pm, by 9:30pm my dog had died aged 4 years and 11 months.
As the months pass, various little things just go wrong, 3 computers break, Car breaks, Medical bills mount, debt from the marriage is becoming to much to deal with.
October 2011 a girl i had been speaking to lies about who she is, all i did was help her but again i get kicked in the gut
January 2012 i come home from work..... my home is emptied, no insurance, no family around me, no friends, just me and my lil dog, couldnt afford insurance, my family helped me out from England, this i was so grateful for.
I walk around with a smile on my face, i try to make people laugh, but inside im sad, down, and lost in my own little bubble called life, i dont want to go back to England, but i dont think i should stay here, maybe i should move to another state and try again, maybe that will be worse.
I`m not looking for Sympathy at all, i just had to let these thoughts out without people knowing, this is the only way i could | |
i know its somewhat cliche but man, this is the time when we need to go out and grab what we want. I'm not talking about robbing people... I'm saying if you want that job go get it! If ya want that great girl, FIND HER. My life sucks in my eyes too, but after reading a lot of this site, I'm done living in self pity... fuck this im gonna go and do what needs to be done to be happy.
PS FEEL FREE TO GIVE UP DATES
FROM 21 YEAR OLD MIKE F
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