LIFE SUCKS

everyone

my mom has had 4 kids so far and is having another in February. the dad of the two youngest and the upcoming baby is my mom's boyfriend. he isn't my dad. i have no real brothers or sisters. they all have different dads and my other sister who doesn't live with us, she has the same dad as me but a different mom.

my little brother and sister's dad is always mean to me and my older sister. i hate him so much. he always blames things on me when it was my little brother, and he and my mom always talk behind me and my older sister's back about how we are always lazy and never get anything done. my little brother always spits on my, calls my cuss words and throws things at me and he either gets tickled or doesn't get spanked at all. but if i do the same i will get smack on the arm or face, or my butt.

which isn't true, because none of our friend's live in our town, they live in a different city so we can't hang out with them, and whenever me and my sister want to go do something like go out to eat or go shopping my mom is always like NO we don't have the money and i don't feel like it. even when me and my sister said that we would pay for the stuff. my mom is always on facebook, she never listens to anyone, she either, ignores us, says what a million times, gets frustrated, or just says "uh-huh".

me and my sister like to draw and paint and whenever when ever we show our mom our artwork she is always like cool, or "uh-huh" without looking away from her computer or phone.

like a couple of days ago i came back from school and i was like " my teacher said i have to take a 0 on this quiz" and my mom was like "why?" and i said " because i was absent on friday the 13th and i forgot to turn my quiz in and my teacher never said anything about turning it in on friday and so i got in trouble because i was absent" and my mom was like "well, that's your own fault" and my mom was like " oh we don't want your mac and cheese tonight we want subway, we'll eat mac and cheese for a snack later" so when we went to subway and then went home, i made mac and cheese and i knew they weren't going to eat so i ate most of it and they never even touched it.

then the next day my sister ate some mac and cheese and she was like " ew this is gross, this tastes weird" that really hurt my feelings. my mom didn't even touch the bowl that i made it in. today my mom yelled at me because i forgot to dry the dishes before i put them away and she yelled at me and she was like " you know, i don't like it when my bowl has germs all over it, i bet you do but i don't, if you don't want to dry the dishes then just leave them in the strainer." and i was thinking " if i leave them in the strainer, i'll just get yelled at by my grandpa and my mom, so i might as well put them away."

my cousins, grandma, grandpa, my whole family, favors my little brother and sister and they don't pay attention to me. whenever my sister paints something they are always like " ooh! i want to buy that! i'll give you $50.00 for it." and whenever i draw or paint something they are like " oh, yea..... that's cool....anyways" and then they go back to my sister's paintings and drawings.

the only people who actually pay attention to only me and not my older sister, younger sister or younger brother is my dad's side of the family. they are always like " what do you want for christmas and your birthday? i'll give some money if you want." and they give me like $50.00. or they are like "sorry i don't have the money right now but i will definitely send you money and the stuff that you want." i have a feeling that this side of the family loves me more than my mom's side.

sorry if this is so much.