Almost a year ago I had a boy best friend. I'm not gonna lie, we had feelings for each other too but he was still my best friend either way. He was the first person in my life who was always there for me. He took me for exactly who I was. He knew everything about my past and still claimed to be in love with me. I had never experienced anything like my friendship with him before. It was crazy how things were with us. I had a boyfriend back then too which made everything a little weird. My boy best friend and one of my girl best friends started becoming really close and eventually ended up dating even though she knew exactly what it was like between me and him. That crushed me that two people I loved would do that to me. We used to talk about getting married and what it would be like when we had kids. It all seemed so real back then, like a real possibility. But not anymore. Me and him for the most part remained friends. We stopped really talking for awhile and it started getting to the point where I missed him. When we started talking a lot again he told me he missed me too and that he loved me and all that stuff. It was nice having him back in my life, especially with us being just friends and nothing more anymore. But his girlfriend just couldn't seem to grasp that concept so basically it ended up with us not being friends anymore because of their relationship. He told me our best friendship was solely based on us liking each other and that he was holding on to a friendship that never really existed and didn't mean anything. But to me it wasn't about that and it meant everything. I'm in a new relationship and and I'm extremely happy with it but it seems that nothing will ever compare to the past. Losing him was one of the hardest things I have had to go through because it showed me that good things can't last forever and that the most important people can be gone in an instant. Which makes trying to put all of my faith in this new relationship really hard. I don't know if I will ever get over this or if I will ever be okay. I like to think I will but I am honestly worried I'll be fucked up my whole life. All of this crosses my mind and hurts my soul every single day I am alive. | |
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BEST OF LUCK AND PLZ WRIGHT BACK =)
If you can't forgive the girl, at least forgive the boy, who must have hurt his fair share to see you dating and having to deal with the fact you didn't break it off for him after he confessed his feelings. Just take the leap and give it a shot before you lose the opportunity. He did not betray you. You two never dated, and you were getting it on with someone else.
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