My life has always been H311 but maybe I have helped it stay that way. I am now 35 but over the years I have been molested raped homeless buying a home to now losing that and trying to begin again. I have two kids and never had any real good relationships. Alcoholism, drugs, dead beats, illegals.... I tried making my kids happy and still have a troubled son and afraid I will make my daughter troubled too. I have a good job but never have any money. Yet I have nothing because I recently filed for bankruptcy and lost my home, car and credit. I am trying to move out of my boyfriends and his ex wife's home to start again but that has at times posed to be harder than moving in.I gave most everything away thinking I would not move again but I didn't know he wasn't soul owner when I moved in. he has 4 girls and three live with us and my two so we have five here and only three rooms because one is just in case the other one comes to visit. My son sleeps in the den. He is always looking for something to get on to my son about and I do my best to stand up for my son and say very little about his or to his because I have already been threatened by thier grandmother and the girls have said things their mother has said that upset me too. I have rented a house and am trying to get in but I haven't been able to afford the electric or gas being turned on because I am trying to regitrer my car that he helped my by for 450 dollars keep in mind I paid all but 200 dollars of the bills last month alone and plan on paying less this month. since I moved in 7 month ago I have paid more then my part of bills and food and am always broke and he kept saying we can do this we can do that but we never do anything we never have time alone not even if we shut the door someone is always knocking, needing, or wanting. I am afraid if I move we will fall apart because I don't see him changing much since not much has been done since I have been here unless I push, fight or buy the things to get it done. But not that any relationship i ave ever had has ever been much different. Just looking to vent so I guess now I have. | |
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