LIFE SUCKS

Im sorry to hear about all the hardships you've endured. I cant imagine what it was like to lose your father so young. I think its important to state that your mother could still be suffering from the lose of her husband, it could have really taken its toll on her mentally, try your best even if you dont like it, to love her, that will really dig digger at her than hating her. Your not hopeless or ugly, thats just your emotions playing tricks on you! Your depressed dear, don't trust her emotions when your depressed. You'll get through this difficult time! I'm not sure if you believe in God or not but praying has helpep me, but you need to have the right heart to pray effectively.

Heres something I wrote a while back to a different person, I think this message will help you as well. Some of it may sound cheesy, but you need to keep an open mind.

God uses the weak, the powerless, the hurt, and the lonely in GREAT ways. Heres a illustration: A potter will take a helpless, lifeless lump of clay and then knead it and squeeze it until it's soft and pliable. And then when he gets it just right, he takes that piece of clay and he does something called throwing, where he places the clay on a spinning table.
aAnd as that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.

God is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes and sins and make them into something completely new!

When you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful! Many people can testify to how God has changed them. Ive never heard of anyone regretting putting their faith in jesus.

Are you saved? God can turn the worst of situations into good! Joeseph was put into slavery by his brothers, he was abandonded, afraid, probably thought his life was over. But he trusted God, he then eventually became second in command of Egypt. Without looking into the future it can be hard to be optimistic. If you put your faith with jesus he wont abandon you, he will love you and give you a new life.

Youtube Nick vujicic. He's a man who was born with no legs or arms, God has done great things through him.

This isin't an ad or some other bull, I'm trying to bring you the truth which many can testify too.

Regards,

Kevin

hey OP, sounds to me that deep down you're a very selfish person.......sure you've been through some tough things, but so has everyone.....some worse, some not, but i think you have "the grass is greener on the other side of the fence syndrome"......you've got someone there who has been beside you through thick and thin, you said yourself he's your backbone.....yet all day you fantasize about ways to reward his loyalty with leaving him for "something fun"......it's all about you, isn't it?.....if you're unhappy, work with him......when you have someone who really cares about you, you shouldn't shit on them, especially since you know first hand what it's like to be shit on......get it?

yea, hey, whatever you do, don't find ways to inspire the man who has been there for you when the rest of the world was fine with taking a big shit on you.......that would just be crazy, right?.....probably take too much work to find common interests and what not....truly very selfish indeed.

Wow, good for you! You are only 21 but realizing there is more to life and that you have so much to offer it :)

I believe you are right. Step into the light and don't look back. Keep working at making you a more empowered person and find supportive people.

Cheers!

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