LIFE SUCKS

Anxious and Alone

I'm 24 years old and my problems make my life hell. I have a mild form of Autism known as Asperger's Syndrome. I have a few friends but most weekends go by and I'm hanging with my parents because I'm SO lonely and no one calls! I'm way overweight. I have no job. I take one class at a time at a Community College and I see a therapist and one day a week I volunteer. Other than that I do NOTHING all day. My anxiety makes it hard for me to leave my apartment so I never go anywhere without my boyfriend who's sick of me bitching at him all the time because I need more meds or maybe less meds, who knows? My brain is so fucked up I can't do anything normal people do everything I do feels so hard to do. I'm tired of shoving pills down my throat every day knowing that my anxiety is still a ten and the only thing I can do really well in this world is eat and eat and eat. I don't sleep at night I can't calm my anxiety down enough to fall asleep and my schedule is ass backwards. I am so bored and lonely. It's not the disability that keeps me from getting a job, it's the anxiety it creates. I am so desperate for someone to help me.