LIFE SUCKS

I want to give the fuck up.

I don't know where to start. I have been through a lot during the past few years. A terrible breakup and severe health problems. After I healed up I tried to get myself a job but I've been led on by "internships" only for everything to be revealed as false promises. My current girlfriend lives with me and my parents. I love them all but the stress is killing me. My father is severely bipolar, my mother is bed-ridden and my girlfriend is overly jealous and materialistic. Whenever she screws up, I get the blame for it. My mother and father are sick of me living with them. I am struggling to find work (I live in the middle of nowhere). I only have $75 in my bank account and my girlfriend is guilt-tripping me into "not treating her properly" and having me buy things for her. I love her and I don't want to break up with her. She has a horrible home life and I'm afraid if we end of breaking up (something I don't want to happen), she might hurt herself or end up homeless (she isn't allowed back home, her mother stole all her money and bought a new house.)I have some deals on the table but I just felt really hopeless today. For the first time I felt I really wanted to die. I went for a walk last night and spent 3 hours in a graveyard, just lying there crying. I don't know what to do. I want to leave home but I have no money, I can't find work and I can't take this stress much longer.