LIFE SUCKS

What's wrong with me

I'm a divorced man with two kids. My ex is tries to do everything to make my life hell. She does everything to have my kids not want to be in my life. It was a marriage of her yelling and living in hell everyday. I am a gay man. I met a man 3 years ago and fell in love. He was so wonderful in the beginning, but then he treated me terribly. He would cut me down all the time. He would never want to try to please me in anyway. He started to never want to have sex. He would get drunk and abuse me. I finally ended it with him. I recently met a guy that says he is totally in love with me, but he has a partner and in an open relationship. He keeps on saying that he is going to end it with him, but there is always a reason not to. I keep having to be alone and waiting. All this while, I try to be a great friend and reach out to people. I never have anyone that seems to want to be a true friend to me. I don't have any friends. My kids wouldn't care if I'm not around, and the man that I'm falling in love with has another. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of always getting the shaft. I'm tired of being treated like shit and not being treated the way I treat others.