LIFE SUCKS

my life really really badly sucks.!!!!

growing up was hard. i was born in england, when i was 3 my dad took me and my brother to america. I cant remember any thing about my mom. My dad and brother refuse to tell me anything about her. I knoe she died 2 years ago but it would of been nice to have a mom for 14 year at least. Any ways, I dont know any of my family other than my brother and dad so its hard to blame them because their all i got. another reason my life truly sucks is im 5 months preg w/ the man who raped me. Im going to have the baby but I chose a family to give the baby to. my dad hates me for getting raped and makes me feel like its my fault. i feel like no one can relate to me. i shared this story w/ my best friend of 10 years yesterday, she was in shock about my mom and the rape. Im prolly going to turn lesbo on top of all that because i cant trust any men.