LIFE SUCKS

I hate life, period

I wish I could end my life, I hate it so much. Even the people that are supposed to love me don't love me or care about me, my own mother doesn't want to talk to me and my father is manipulated by her all the time. My kids don't ever listen to me and their father died, lucky him, he was in a car accident and left me all alone here with 3 kids. I hate my life and my face and my body I wish I could destroy it and cut it into so many pieces that no body would ever recognize me when I finish with this stupid life. I don't want to go to work I don't want to get up in the morning I don't have any friends and I don't have anyone that cares about me. What's the point of being here what's my purpose I just want to eat and eat until I explode and no longer have to suffer in this stupid world . I'm so tired so so tired of having to keep trying and trying. I keep trying to make things better and give my family more but it just doesn't work stupid luck is never on my side I never fucking win I'm always the fucking loser that everybody makes fun of and uses and doesn't care about.