I don't know how to begin but I've always been alone. I can't get a long with my friends because my topics are just pain boring. They love talking about fashion, boys and korean popstars. I'm nowhere there. I can't joke with them and they treat me like as if I'm invisible. when I ask anyone about anything they would say things like "ermm.. thats really nice" loads of fake compliments everywhere. I don't have a true friend and the closest friend of mine is being controlled by another girl who doesn't allow us to spend time together. Her friend controlls her all the time. Almost all my 'friends' also have boyfriends who would care about them and I don't. In fact I'm going 17 and I still don't. All my crushes left me because I'm not brave enough to make anymove. No one cares about me. I'm just an invisible girl. Everyone uses me because of my abilities, I did rather well in school, my family is ok and we are fine but... I just feel neglected everytime. I sometimes spend my recess in the toilet, just reading up some boring books to kill time. No one would call or find me. I just feel like there's no meaning to life living like a loner.. I tried, I tried to mingle with people but always end up being quiet in the corner and friends would just get up as a group and leave without me.. and there I am.. sitting on the empty table with stares at me again.
I could just dissapear and no one would even care. I'm not hated by anyone or anything but I'm just not special, I'm not active or sporty like other girls. I'm just boring.. boring as hell. | |
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