angry american story | Posted by angry american at December 30, 2011 | Tags: 2011 December Money |
I’m 23 Live with my grand parents and my mother so when I get yelled at its 3 times worse I was locked up for a year when I was 16 for armed robbery... I have a misdemeanor 3 on my record just got fired from my job at lids they used me for the Christmas holiday but promised me a full time position I was putting $2000 a day in the register in sales but they let me go I failed out of Penn state the first year transferred to LaGuardia community college did one semester then never went back because of living situations, I lost the love of my life we were together for 3 years now she’s gone for ever and I miss her everyday and it seems only ugly girls want me I don't have a dime to my name my family doesn't respect me because i was incarcerated so they treat me like shit and its really hurting me inside, I drive an old school benz that's it good shape but I have no gas and the state is threatening to take my license away for a year for failure to pay court fees oh yea I just got it back 1 month ago after waiting 2 years for it…… long story all my friends are going out to a club but I have no money I cant go everyone in my family has money but they are stingy when I had money I would give up my last dollar now I'm fucked up everyone forgot and wont help me, my fathers loosing his house its currently in foreclosure I have no nice clothes o yea I owe the state of new york city $1500.00 in parking tickets luckily I live in long island so they cant put a boot on it or better yet tow it away also my credit is shot to hell like the guy’s. I'm in debt a good 50 thou more or less I need braces and I also have a deviated septum in my nose and I need surgery but I cant afford it and worst of all the people I thought that were my real friends turned there backs to me because of immaturity or got strung out on drugs I feel so alone I am satisfied that I'm alive and eat once a day it feels like I will never get outta this hole I also struggle with suicide everyday it feels like I'm dead already I even tried to sell drugs it was working then my partner spent all the money at the strip club every penny and also my baby cousins are doing better than me in life and there trying to give me advice as we speak "Humiliating" I'm tired of people telling me what i need to do i no what to do nothing ever works for me I feel like i don't belong here and worst of all I'm black and half Portuguese I might end it tonight if some type of miracle happens I'm sorry people but that's how I feel……….. I can go on and on but I’m gonna stop here I cant stop crying my life has been hell since i was born the only person that has it worse then me is the kids in Africa that have no food that’s it!!!! | |
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