LIFE SUCKS

my life

i'm 22 years old after graduating high school i joined the navy where i excelled at every task put infront of me i made rank quickly but i started to develop this fear of every thing i cant enjoy any of my accomplishments and worst off i think i forgot how to communicate with people. at fist i enjoyed saying mest up things to people for shock laughs but it has slow consumed my life and the way i think now.. i'm about to get out with no communications skills and for the past four years i believed that i was to busy to have a girl friend. so every time i talk to people i feel exhausted. i don't know what to expect in the coming months but for the first time in my life i feel scared not the kinda of scared as if you where walking in a haunted house but a sense of hopelessness i used to be a strong christian but now i don't believe in any thing some thing happened i changed some where for the worst. i feel i've spent so much time telling my self "i'm serving my country there is no time for any thing else" that i never got to enjoy it or learn how to spell. i truly feel i haven't matured i feel i'm still making the same mistakes i have always have i always thought i would be refined and be better off. but now i feel lost i'm terrified.