LIFE SUCKS

I Hate My Life

Where should i start? Well, I'm 19 years old my family is nothing like me, and they criticize me about everything i do in my life. I try so hard to be like them but im just not and my dad pretty much hates me most of the time so i stay at my friends house a lot. I have gotten into trouble recently from the cops because i stook up for a friend of mine. I feel like nothing i do is ever going to be good enough. i cant find a job and i lost my car over 8 months ago now. i got a desease from someone that didnt tell me he had it and now im stuck with it for life. I cant believe this is happening to me. I met someone and i really liked them and then they just decide im not good enough for them so they ignored me and then finally said i was pretty much a terrible person. I honestly feel like im worthless in this world and i keep trying to play it off that im ok to everyone around me but im hit a breaking point where i think im about to break down. I want to be on drugs or drunk all the time and its getting bad. I cant deal with reality anymore i hate it..... why does everything horrible happen to me.... my friends even fuck me over alot but im so stupid that i forgive them constantly because i fell like everyone deserves chances but how many damn chances does a person need to be a good friend for once.... all i want is to be happy but i feel like ill never find anyone to spend my life with and ill never be able to get a job and make my family proud....