LIFE SUCKS

Circling the Drain

When I was 17 my mom died of cancer and my father remarried. She tried playing nice with everyone at first but I didn't buy it. There was something...off about her. I didn't trust her. Things slowly got worse once we moved in together. Then when my dad went on a business trip and while he was gone she kicked me out for allegedly sneaking out and leaving the window open. but it wasn't me...my brother did it and him being younger I took the fall because I didn't want him in trouble. I don't know it would get me kicked out. I slept in my car for a while because I dint have a place to go. I had to drop out of college and work full time. I got in a accident and couldn't pay the bills because I was stuck in bed for 6 months. Now I have no place to go, no job,no degree, creditors calling me every day for money that I don't have. No medical insurance so I cant get the medicine I need. All my 'friends' are long gone. I haven't talked to my family in over a year and they like it that way. My dad never helped me when he has the means to even though he knew I needed it. That bitch he married quit her job so she could stay home and shop and then lie around all day waiting to get fucked. I had such a bright future that was planned out but I see no way out of this rut I'm in It just keeps getting deeper. I have court cost out the ass for the accident and spent some time in jail because I cant pay them. I'm facing up to a year in county jail if I don't pay my fine by next month. I only see one way out. Maybe I can see my mom again too. The only time I can find even a little joy is when I think of my childhood with her. One thing is certain. I will die before I go to county.