Well, I guess I am about to lay out my life to random strangers on the internet.
Here goes nothing.
I am a fifteen year old girl. I have three siblings, one older brother and sister, and a younger sister. My brother is the popular jock, my sister is popular beauty, and my younger sister is an adorable kid genius. I am constantly compared to my siblings and sometimes I think that I am adopted. I don't belong in my family. My dad is a heart doctor, so I am financially stable.
My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer three years ago. Every day she has is a blessing. Every hour is a savior. My whole family helps her out with everything. When it was first diagnosed, the doctor said she had ten years, tops. That's three years gone, seven left.
All my siblings have talents. I have nothing. I am okay in school, okay at sports and okay looking. I am not even close to how many friends my sister has.
I am already tired from writing this. It doesn't even feel like my story. When I found out my mom had cancer, I didn't talk for a month. Nothing came out, it was all balled up inside. It took me awhile before I finally started seeing that I had a problem. I started seeing a psychiatrist, who I was so scared of that I actually walked out of the session while she was talking. I started crying and just sat in a corner.
I can't write anymore... | |
Sometimes we don't know what to do with our shitty lives, but we can always know we aren't the only one's going through tough times. I hope you find your way, just as I hope I find mine. I hope one day we can both find real happiness. Whatever it takes....
Best of luck..from a complete stranger, and a friend.
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