Long story short i was born into a previously rich happy family into a poor broken home. My whole life from elementary school to high school was complete shit. I was bullied up until grade 11 after i beat the living crap out of this kid. Now im 21 in university, not social and introverted. Every girl I've met always just wants to be friends and they say im not their type( As in im a cool guy but broke and ugly). Living in a materialistic shallow city i now know that im probably going to die alone. I honestly have hated myself since i was 5. I look in the mirror and i just get mad at myself. Im losing my hair my nose is huge,my ears are big and my eyes are big too. Not once in my life has a girl ever complimented me on my looks.All i ever wanted as a child was to live in a house where everyone loves each other or to have one family member for me to look up to. I have no relationship with my family of 5 in a house with 3 bedrooms. I also got depressed to a point that i am now on antidepressants, and i dont even know how to show someone that i love them.
All i ever wanted in life was just to have a few close friends and one girl to call my own to motivate me that life isn't so shitty after all. But instead god decided to make me a lonely 21 year old virgin with no one to love me. All i do is work and school. Thats it. Thank you for reading.
One thing i have learned in this life though is that theirs 2 types of people in this world the ones who claim that they are the victim or the one's who get right back up from their failure and move on to the end for better or worse. No matter how shitty my life gets i will never give up because i do believe in miracles. I hope every one who writes in this thread does too. | |
im hoping for a miracle too,
ive been waiting long enough though
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