graduate student near dropping out, 24 yrs old, never had a girlfriend, a minority within a minority, wasted 5 yrs in a B.S. degree in electrical engineering for nothing, career is a fail (3 years since graduating and nothing), economy sucks, lonely no friends, 1000 miles away from nearest family, living in a huge city and don't know anybody, take sedatives every night mixed with alcohol to fall asleep, 2 failed internships (one fired, one forced to resign), 2 classes short of a masters degree but see no value in it, no interest in women at the moment - too depressing thanking about fuckin money all the time, poor as hell, unemployed, probably not going to die anytime soon - very athletic gym is the only thing i got. bad relationship with family members, spend holidays completely alone (but that doesnt bother me since im not sentimental), have no confidence, don't believe in anything, cynical about everything, have no interest in mainstream movies/music/etc just lost taste, invested so much in a career and feeling what happens when you put all your eggs in one basket, do lots of manual labor (like yardwork) to pay rent at like less than illegalimmigrant pay - $5.00/hr (3 years ago, i had a great $14.00/hr job that i quit to focus on school)...yea really sad but those are the times. and i better get at least one fuckin "yes it sucks"...at least give me sympathy since pretty much got nothin else | |
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