I am a 31 year old female who likes to fix everything... compromise and reach a common ground so that everyone is happy and at no ones expense. Everything should be fair in life within reason. About 4 months ago I left my life in New York... working 72 hrs. a week, working 4 jobs, my husband whom is still working 4 jobs, my family and everything I've ever known. Every job I left I was pretty much doing since I was 16 years old in some cases worked my way up the ladder. They were easy jobs that I for the most part enjoyed except I couldn't have a life outside of work. I moved to Vermont because I thought I needed a change. I wanted a quality of life. I knew in order to do that I needed a new career and I needed to sell my condo in which I just found out will cost us about $22,000 to sell. I knew the 5 hour move would not be easy but it was something I thought I should do. I moved when I was offered a job. The job was very different then what I was used to. My jobs before I moved were an Ice Rink Manager/Office Manager and Lifeguard. My new job is being an Afterschool coordinator for grades K through 3. I coordinate Staff, children, activities and snack Mon. through Fri. 2:30pm - 6pm. On paper I might have experience in this type of job after all I was a Camp Counselor at a sleep away camp for 4 years, taught ice skating and swim lessons. I came from a family line of teachers... my Aunt was a phys. ed. teacher, my grandma was a teacher and my Mom is a Principal of a special needs pre school in Manhattan. I don't know anything about disciplining kids I don't have any children and who knows when I will be able to afford to have one. I was also born with Learning Disabilities. School was really hard socially and academically... I hated going!! It just adds more stress to this job... I can relate to all the kids and I actually feel what they are going through and just as when I was young and I had trouble expressing myself to my peers everyday I go to work and I feel the same way. I want to help every child and fix there problems so they don't have to feel like I did growing up and how I feel now... but I know I can't. Having learning disabilities and figuring out how to compensate for them made me the somewhat strong person I am today. I miss my mom everyday because she always sits down and practices what to say and teaches me situational conversation without knowing. I miss my husbands moral and emotional support (one or two hugs) everyday when I come home to an empty apartment. I miss my dad who knows what it's like to be me. I have done everything I should do up here which is: Contact VT Works For Women & VocRehab. I have a meeting with my job counselor for the first time this Fri. I think I want to try being a Locksmith or Plumber. I felt comfortable that these 2 programs will assist me in any way just to help me get a job that makes me happy and assist me in keeping it so I can achieve my goal of having a quality of life. I may never have enough money for a house or a child but I guess you don't need that for a quality of life although in society, media, and your upbringing they want you to work hard to have everything you dream of. I say GOOD LUCK to that!!! I think the American dream is over!!! I'll let you know if I ever achieve my goals and dreams: House with a yard, 2 children, a job that I feel like an asset not pee on and that I enjoy and feel comfortable doing, and that I have my husband with me and family near by for support and to help me have a quality of life. All I can think about is did I make the Right decision to move. I really need immediate satisfaction and I know I'm not going to get it for at least a month. I don't feel that I can stick this job out for 4 more weeks and if I quit I can't pay rent. So I guess I'll cry every night for the next 4 weeks till I figure out locksmithing or plumbing and if both of those don't work than I'm back to square one. At that point I'd rather be collecting disability and doing nothing because it's too frustrating. My ideal job is Skate Guarding. So if anyone reading this is willing to pay me $60,000 a year to Skate Guard I'll drop everything and move to a company that would allow me to do it. I know I'm more valuable to a company than that but I don't want to be. Please comment on my story so I don't feel alone. Thank You. | |
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