I was with my boyfriend for a year and a half. We talked about marriage, and I wanted more than anything to spend the rest of my life with him. We had a connection that I could never explain. I started having some issues with him not being romantic or being vocal about a future. I knew the feelings were there, and I excepted the way he showed them. I guess just ONCE I wanted him to vocalize them. Well, this caused us to fight and we broke up. I told him it was not over. We would work things out, and start fresh. He started pushing me away and I thought I had ruined any chance of being with him. I started seeing someone else. And honestly it as only to help ease the pain. Then, I find out my ex was saving up for a ring. Which was honestly all I wanted. Because I found how true his feelings were, it enhanced the feelings that I had hurt him too badly. I finally decided I could not ignore my feelings anymore, and tried to get him back. We talked for a week, he took me out to dinner, and then tells me he has a girlfriend. He said he is only choosing her over me because he has known her for a long time and she won't change him. I have no desire to do that! Now I'm waiting on the sidelines pathetically, waiting for his decision. On top of it, I failed my college courses due to stress. I started college a few years late, and could not afford any mess ups. I completely dropped out. I want him back more than anything but he is scared I will hurt him again. I just don't know why to do anymore. | |
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