LIFE SUCKS

bad luck girl!

I have to be the most unluckiest person in the world! NOTHING! ever works out for me. I am so afraid of my kids being ashamed of me because my two jobs suck and don't pay enough to get out of this terrible neighborhood we live in and I can't give them the life they deserve. I can't even buy food for them. No matter what I try I can't get ahead. I can't buy a house or even rent a house for my family and they just feel so sad that they can't even have presents this year or even a tree. my girls deserve better but I can't afford it. No happy new year for us, only tears. I wish I could take my life but then who would take care of them? I just need to find a better job so I can get my family out of this situation and move forward. I will be eating pb&j sandwiches for christmas dinner, I hope one day I can provide for them better but for now, my job interviews are a bust and no one can give me an opportunity to show how good I am at my job. I just have such bad luck in everything and sadly my kids are paying the price too. They have a loser for a mom, and it hurts me so much to be a loser for them. I love them sooo much! They are my life, but I am not worthy of them...they deserve sooo much better than me. Loser Mom! that's me!!