I am a 22 year old male. I grew up in a crazy family. My parents broke up when I was 15 and now do not talk to each other. The turbulence and hatred that I saw grow between my parents motivated me to have a successful and loving family of my own (which I never thought would be a problem because I had a strong sex drive and love girls). I have always had a chip on my shoulder ever since people disrespected me in high school and I have worked hard to be somebody I can be proud of. I was finally getting to a point in my life where I was proud of myself, but suddenly I sort of lost it in college and became depressed and started having anxiety attacks. I was told to go on an antidepressant to help me during this time, and I reluctantly listened. I decided to go to a new college to start new, a college with lots of fine looking girls. I had sexual troubles (including low/none sex drive) on the antidepressant, but I never thought that it could become permanent. Once I got off of the medication, my sex drive never returned. Girls no longer excite me like before and I feel like I have no reason to live. I continue to push on and do things to make me feel better (I am not giving up just yet), but in the meantime I am losing respect from all of my friends and family. My younger brothers no longer smile and joke around with me. My best friend calls me a bitch all of the time. I told my parents about my problems but they don't give a shit. I used to be all about being the macho man, but now I am the definition of a pussy. I wouldn't say depression is the cause of my sexual dysfunction because I can be upbeat and enjoying life but it is not there. I had been depressed before I took medication and my sex drive was still there. My sex drive and passion for women felt like the reason I am alive and now it is gone. On top of that my neck and upper back are always stiff now because of "stress" even when I am not stressed out (tension headache), I crashed my car, and my computer recently broke. I can no longer drink or do drugs because it causes more problems for me. Exercise is my only friend. Fuck my life.
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