LIFE SUCKS

Life Sucks Balls

I am 21 years old. I'm worried about my parents getting divorced. I'm constantly angry or depressed. I'm afraid of gettin so angry that i will do something i will regret, i've pushed my dad around and punched alot of holes in my bedroom walls. It feels like my friends dont get me, i feel like the odd one out in the group and that i dont belong anywhere. Most times i just want to fade away into the background. I have no confidence or belief in myself anymore and i have stopped playing sports. I cant get a job anywhere and i cant go to college due to not having a good enough leaving cert. I HATE everything about myself and sometimes i wish i wasnt here anymore. I have tried so hard to change but i feel like im falling into a bottomless pit and its never going to end. I wasnt always like this. I used to be a happy go lucky guy with the world at my fingertips. Now i'm empty.