So im 19 and just got out of a relationship with someone for a year and 6 months. He was everything to me, like my first real love and i loved him with my mind, body and soul. i try telling myself that im okay but its hard to do alone. When im alone i feel so tried of my life and i feel hopeless. He was my best friend. we talked everyday and saw each other every other day and it felt wonderful to have someone in my life who loved me. But when it came down to it, he loved me but wasnt IN love with me. i changed alot because of him and im a different person now because of him. But now i have no one and i feel like i dont belong here on earth because i dont see my life going anywhere. Someone once told me that WE have a life plan and then there's GOD plan for us. But i feel like there is no plan for me. i have no job, i got fired the day before he broke up with me and it hurts. I tell myself that im not gonna cry anymore but i always do. i just feel used and useless. I know people say that you have your whole life in front of you but i dont see it because nothing it going right. I sometimes go by the saying "If your a good person then good things will come to you", but i dont think thats true anymore. I feel like a part of me is dead and i cant ever get it back. I try to smile but how can one smile if their not really happy. | |
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