LIFE SUCKS

i'm gonna do it.

i think im going to kill myself. i have nothing to live for. i have no talents, no hobbies, no true interest in anything. i have no major picked out. i'm only a year and a quarter in, but failed a lot of my classes. i'm stuck living at home with my parents with a shitty job. i cant afford to move out but i dont want to be here or at school. i dont own a car. i'm transgender and no one knows i'm a guy in a girls body. my life fucking sucks. no one is supportive of me.
i have no true friends. i fake my laughter and smiles so well that everyone believes it. i cry everyday. i'm really disgusting too. i'm single and never had a real relationship...i'm 21. i'm a complete virgin. i hate my voice...

everything i want to do i fail at or quit. i cant make up my mind or stand up for myself. my family is mean to me including my brothers. no one sees my struggle...they just call me a bitch. my dad is a sexist asshole who mentally abuses me and my mom all the time.

i have no hopes or dreams. my dreams are unrealistic. i'm close to shutting down. all i do is sleep. i hate school and work and i just want to sleep forever. i have nothing to live for. at all. im invisible.