well thers not much of a tale to tell iam a 24 old male with no relationship no girlfriend of any sort or anything close to a girlfriend i have a very negative family that seems to get comfort in seeing pain and disapointment of me i have not a friend in the world and anything i get close to suddenly leaves me.during a child my father was not around forced out of the house by my mother.dad moved far away and my mother told us kids he left us and hes not coming back my sister was hurt very much by this during my childhood my mother did not believe in affection it seemed like a contest on you could have the worst childhood but after one drunk boyfriend to another and more and more beatings i ssemed that i was hollowed out and hate and resentment filled me over my teenage years i was very shy in school and felt better just not being there.it was my lil relief from the world just being by myself i found more comfort in just working as hard as i could and getting told what a good job iwas doing so eventally i dropped out of school when i was 19 i left the house after a drunken night from my mother and her boyfriend i stood up for myself and the night ended with some stiches blood lose and me living in my car till i had a paycheck to get my first place soon after that i left my small town and moved to a bigger city and tried to work on my social skills but i failed at that iam a extremly shy person and have trouble talking with others and cant trust one person i dont know what to do theharder i work the more ifail and so tired of never catching a break i could be alone in a crowd full of people i feel like i dont exist at all.just wondering on how i could slip through all these years | |
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Yep, actually understand when you have no one to call or text etc....that's why I am on here personally find it the easiest way to discuss my problems with someone who can actually understand instead of saying I am being pessimistic. Stops me from crying.
With the panic attacks have you ever consulted a GP and you should panic because you have no one .....a lot of people on this site are lonely too. One day someone will walk into your life.
With the shyness I overcame it from gaining social skills making small talk at bars, university etc and looking confident helps you to mentally believe it. (Am the person from the above comment) ...I would love to escape somewhere, start a new life far away from everyone and prove to them I can be successful.
If you like you can email me on millys2011@LIVE.CO.UK
Well, true friends would not have disappeared...I expect some too but not the ones I lived and saw everyday for 4 years ! I cannot even find a job in my field to even make colleagues as friends.
That's so cruel if they feel embarrassed because you lack friends! They should be your friends!
I keep myself busy from feeling lonely either going shopping, Central London or even cleaning....helps to adapt.
Hope today will be a better day.
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