LIFE SUCKS

Im sorry u r very brave and I'm glad youve held on :)
i wish i knew an answer i was molested and raped and still am and ive gone t thr hospital several times... i just dont want u to feel alone does ur husband know about your past he might be able to help you...
sigh life does suck when you experience that
but again i' glad uve held on

Hi there

I am really sad to read your story, and I can only imagine how though your life has been and still are.

The first thing I would do if I were you, would be to come out of debt. Even sell my house and live in the forrest if I was unable to come out of debt because of the high housing expensens ect.

As for your struggle with loving your husband and kids. You need to see someone professional to help deal with your issues. I can promise you, you are not unable to love people, it is just that your previous experiences have created defense-mechanisms so that you dont have to deal with the pain.

Life is not the same for everyone, remember that. Sometimes you have to find new solutions nearly no one chooses because it is not the "normal" way. The same things doesn't necessarily bring happiness to everyone; remember that too. Therefore, try and discover what makes you happy, and try to have fun in your daily life. Perhaps the path for you is to take your husband and move to India to learn from Buddhists and live in a temple. WHO KNOWS! Just be open, and start looking for change if you are not happy.

I'm also very sorry for you, I was also repeatedly molested for years by my father. I always told myself "He stole my childhood, I'll be damned if he steals my adulthood!" I left him behind and that meant giving up my mother who never left him. But life was good. Until now when I am divorcing my husband of thirty years because of his Internet porn addiction and it
being seen by my son when he was eight! It seems I can't get away from perverts! But, I see friends with genuinely great husbands who are good Christians. My next husband will have to be a good, practicing Christian.

All men who attack women and kids should be necklaced. Not all men are scum like that, some have a protective gene. Be strong and Remember they were weak and you are the strong one.
As a man I believe we still need to sort this world out and empower more woman to stop this happening. I'm not religious but that is a good cause and worth fighting ( living) for. Best wishes and god bless.

Your so strong for what you have been through....My problems compare nothing to this.....maybe you should get help to express your feelings and help to get over this awful pain.

V4OikL Yeah, now it's clear !... And firstly I did not understand very much where there was the link with the title itself !!...