Yeah yeah, some post about some loser bitching about their sub-par life. not some cry for attention here. I really just wanna get this off my chest. Im not gonna go in to finer points of my life but all you really need to know is this
-im never gonna have wife
-im never gonna have kids
-im never gonna be any where near normal
Im gonna go to work tomorrow for 12 hours sleep and do it again the next day. the only reason im doing this is so i have a place to sleep, shower, and keep my shit that I need for work. My whole life more or less a grind. whats the point? I play video games a lot and I understand how to grind out something but its to reach a final goal something to work towards. there is nothing in life for me to get to. just live the die then thats it. like turning off a tv it goes from an exciting show with a vague isolated story line to a black screen. I in my mid twenties and cant talk to girls. im not gay, actually i kinda wish i was then i would have some identity to work off of. when I say i cant talk to girls its not like i freeze when they are near by but when they show signs of attraction to me i cant think. my thought process just stops. weird thing is, its not like I haven't fucked. (dont get it twisted not like it happens often). I have no resolve to go on. there is no light that i can see or even imagine at this point. On of my friends has stage 1 lung cancer and dosent have 50k to pay for the operation. hes normal though (btw no one i know really knows the weird me)i dounno i kinda wish i had cancer and not him. he would live a happier life then me. my life is kinda shot. like when you make a char in a game and fuck it up its worthless mid game and late game. thats me. Guess i wish i knew what my deal was i dont even really know who I am representing (that is to say I cant really identify who i am) w/e thanks for reading my post bitching about my shitty life. | |
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Change your life. Look for happiness. The life you are living now isn't the life for you, or else you wouldn't want to change it. Change your life until you are having fun, and when the fun stops, change it again.
I know you can do better than this. You are just experiencing a depression, a deep and perhaps chronically depression.
You have a job, and Thats a good start. However, it seems to make you unhappy. So change that part of your life. Change everything that grants you misery, and try to find what brings you joy and makes you laugh. I suggest you continue working, but in the meantime try to find something else that makes you happier.
And remember, money isn't everything. If you are having fun, you are rich. A wild-man in the woods that are having fun sitting around a fire, chatting with his friend about their great hunt, can be much richer than the rich person using his life to build a company so that he can have even more money.
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