LIFE SUCKS

No social happyness

Whole my life I was poor. Same clothes, no money for pocket. Then after I graduated I start working as developer as freelancer an my earnings become high. I bought car and clothes. I am 28 years old and I have no clue about social life. Never had girlfriend, never had true friend, and never developed social life other then 1:1 friendships. 1:many I was total different and afraid.

Now I cant believe how stuck I am at life. I cant change anything. I know no girl in the World that would fall for me, as I am so boring and afraid to show any emotion or interest to anyone. Even to friends when we are more then alone.

Hard part is that many guys around think its just car and money but for me it is just not enough. I am still alone, and I think I do not deserve this life as I cant do anything with it. No one likes me besides sister. No one cares. There is no one around my life.

I am all work/sleep/internet, all day at home. I think I need to change something big or end this life on some way that wont hurt parents. I feel mankind betrayed me and that I am only one specimen on this world destined to spend life alone.