I'm 48, wife two kids, one is graduating college and the other has just started, been married for 30 years.
A few years ago, both of my parents passed away, they were in their 80's, before their passing our family was close. We would get together about once a month and it was a joy, now we barely see each other, some of my siblings have fallen on hard times, one of them has some kind of mental problems that have intensified since my parents deaths. I'm in business for myself and my business is failing for a reason I can't really put my finger on. I don't want to be around anyone anymore, my wife constantly nags me and starts arguments over the smallest things. My kids are basically good kids and do the right thing, but ultimately they are lazy and feel entitlement to things I can't provide. Everything I do is mediocre at best, when it comes to money, the best I can do is buy a CD or two, all other investments I have made are losses so I can't even contemplate buying another stock ever, I think I'm stupid or something. I think about suicide every day without fail, even on good days, I wish it would end. My friends all suck, they always seem to have an agenda so I never feel trust or closeness. I have no one to confide in except this random site I found "lifesucksbigtime". I watch what I eat, I exercise, but I still have a belly and man boobs. I have a gun but I can't find the bullets, dammit. | |
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