I remember the innocence of being a child. I had lots of friends, did good and school, and everything was all right. My childhood was growing up in Alberta, Cananda.
After some health issues with my dad, we moved out to Vancouver Island on the west coast. I lost everything. I was getting picked on for no reason, lost my ability to socialize, and failed grade 8. I even tried to kill myself. My best friend is someone I haven't seen in 5-6 years.
Now im a loner kid with a form of Aspergers Syndrome. Im pretty much normal, but I dont think before I act. Sometimes I say and do stupid shit that makes look like a fucking wierd kid. No one cares in elementary school, but in high school, I have nothing. I dont know if ill survive or even graduate.
Being a video game nerd doesnt help either. I have glasses, Im skinnier than a blade of grass, I cant even do a fucking chin-up, and Ive never had a girlfriend. (Im 17)
Currently Im in a better school, and no one treats me like shit now. But I cant talk to people. It feels awkward for me. I cant look into their faces when I talk, and I just want to be left alone.
Im anti-social, no life, no skills, with no future. I was fine until grade 6, then things got worse. Im really depressed, I cry at night wishing for my life back, and wonder If ill get anywhere in life or end up shooting myself somewhere. And there is stuff I havent even mentioned, and dont want to.
FUCK LIFE, FUCK GOD, AND FUCK EVERYONE WHO MADE ME MISERABLE. | |
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