I am a 17 year old girl. Two years ago I was abused. This took everything away from me. I was also bullied at school, I was told to kill myself by nearly everyone. Last summer I came home and took a whole bottle of ibuprofen as a suicide attempt. It failed miserably. Soon after I began cutting myself. Then I became addicted. I cut deeply, and I have needed stitches on nearly all cuts I do now. I attempted suicide again in January and again in April. No body understands what I am going through. Every second of my life is spent thinking about suicide. I have to wear long sleeves all the time because my I have about 60+ serious scars on each arm. Also I have anorexia, I have gone 21 days on a fast. I pass out a lot when I stand up.
I want to die so much. I dropped out of school because I was too mentally sick to do anything. I can nearly get out of bed, often I that's as far as I get. I lie there and fight the urge to kill myself. My parents hate me and I have no fiends. I was diagnosed with anorexia, borderline personality disorder, bipolar disorder and post traumatic stress disorder.
Please let me die. Please I'm tired of this agony and torture.
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I have attempted suicide myself (hanging) was found and resuscitated. I was able to survive to this point, 12 yrs later, and I dont know why, but there must have been some reason. And there is a reason for you. Please hold out hope, I know that is much easier said then done, but it can be done.
I can relate to your last 2 sentences, I have prayed for death many nights myself, just let the agony end. I found volunteer work very rewarding myself, perhaps you should try it, I am sure you love animals, most deep caring and feeling people do. While shallow and unemotional people dont care much about them. Help out with animals and it may make a difference in your own feelings. Good luck.
You have mental illness (bipolar disorder) which was further aggravated by abuse. When you lie in bed, perhaps you should listen to some music which could be therapeutic. Also, seek medical help and support
It is not true that you do not have any friends - from comments here, you can see that we are "online friends " who care.
I am middle aged, with middle-life crisis. Reading what you are going thru makes me wish i can also do something to help you
*hugs*
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