I don't really know how to start this. So, I know people have had some petty messed up stuff happen to them, so I feel bad talking about my miniscule problems but I have to vent to someone. I grew up with an alcoholic father and sometimes alcoholic mother. I have been hit by my father multiple times with belt and with hand. I was almost punched by my dad when he was drunk but I ducked out of the way. I battled with depression for awhile because I didn't have any friends. I also had struggles with OCD but they are under control. I feel like I had separation anxiety and social problems. I want to get therapy but my parents won't let me. My parents always call me bad things and they are never proud of me. I can't do anything right. Nothing was keeping me on thus earth except my dream of becoming a detective, but my parents won't let me he one. they say I have to be a doctor or some high paying career. I don't care about money I just want to help people. I Have slowly developed anger issues as well. I feel like I seriously want to hurt people and I have before, lik my brother. He is the only one I Have left since I feel neglected. I am tearing up as I am writing this but I feel ashamed because my dad says crying is for babies. This is all I have to say.
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And don't hurt your self. Be nice to others, talk to them, don't be anxious, though. Get out of the house, smell the flowers, give to other people. You can get through this. You need to believe and care for others. Remember, there are friends out there that are not inapropriate. You can even go to the police department and ask about a detective job if you are old enough. Do comunity service you are never too young to do good deeds. And crying is not for babies, only! Get help! For you and your brother!
One more thing, get to know them really good before you get to the next level, and start making friends, first. Kids your gender. Go the appropriate way and get a counseler. God loves you!! Know that I care, too!!!
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