I'm turning 40 in a couple of months and i live with my mom. I had to move in with her after i lost a job and my boyfriend i was going to move in with broke up with me (after a 4 year relationship). I decided to go back to school for another degree so i can one day get a better job, but am struggling to come up with the money for school. I'm still in debt from some stuff from the past.
I finally found a job but it's terrible and I'm so stressed every day I feel sick. It's very far from where I live; i spend so much on gas and the job doesn't even pay well. But it's better than being unemployed like i was for 9 months.
I am dating a guy i think i am in love with but he is not in love with me. I think he is using me as his Rebound Relationship (he is in the process of a divorce; I met him when he had been separated for almost a year.) we have been dating for a year and i thought he had fallen for me too, but just this past weekend i found out that he still doesn't even consider me his girlfriend & still doesn't want a serious relationship. My self esteem is soo freakin' low from bad past relationships that i can't even bring myself to stop seeing him.
i am stressed out and depressed every day and i never feel well but have no health insurance (i work a freelance job, no benefits). my mom also drives me nuts sometimes but i can't afford to move out and still save for school. And soon i will be 40 years old and i am finally feeling old, and scared, and like life is not worth it. | |
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