LIFE SUCKS

Life long dream deflated

I am 38 and was diagnosed with uterine cancer at the age of 34. I survived and am grateful for medical advance. I had been trying to have a baby when I was diagnosed. So my dream of having a baby was deflated. My husband and I started looking into adoption but was turned sown because of his drug felonies when he was younger came up and deflated this idea of adopting. I wonder sometimes why I am still here I always believed my purpose on earth was to become a mom. I am now pushing my husband away. He is a great man and I do love him. I just can't help blaming cancer and society for deflating my dream. You may ask why society, it is because people don't give people a second chance anymore. My husband lived on the streets when he was younger because his parents were strung out on crack, and their drug dealer made him sell. He was busted got a year and when he came out the drug dealer made him sell again and he was busted again. He can never have it espunged. So life sucks royally when your dream is deflated.