I have been unemployed for over a year. Unable to support myself, no hope of finding any work. Lost everything! After a heart attack and two wrists that have been under the knife 6 times for ligament tears and too the fact that I will soon be 51 years old, who would want to hire me. Life is without hope, feel like a burden to all that know me. Just want to end this pain inside. I was once a very proud successful man, now only a shell of what was once a man. Have received help been placed on medication to treat the depression, but all it does is mask my feelings. I find no pleasure in life, everyday all I think about is the best way to accomplish the final deed. Still searching for a way to make it look as an accident. Any one have a suggestion? I pray each day for God to take me. Let a child live an take me in their place.
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I am ready to tell you things i am through, that are even more bad than urs, and still, i refuse to give up, why would i, instead, i will fight, i want to be happy, and i am not for now, and despite all the time i have lost for now, i wont lose more, I AM CHANGING FACTS, nothing in life worth time, you have no idea what a second would mean, and God is giving you days and years, dont waste it. dont let it go man...
I can help you, please, send me any way to reach you and contact you, your email or phone number. you will make me happy if u let me help you, you know what happiness mean, so if i said u would make me happy, wouldnt you want to grant me that, knowing how it feels to not have it?
Dont give up, and let me help you... your not alone in the world.
The falsely positive idiots with their "life is wonderful", life is worth fighting for" and all the pathetic God Botherers can trumpet their brain dead transcripts all they like and I can only say don't buy that bullshit, coz that's all it is.
Whether you give up or not however is a BIG decision and not one to be taken lightly. Do you have kids ? do you have people who genuinely love you (I mean REALLY love you, forget the self serving "noone loves me" bullshit). Parents ? Close friends ?
The major impact of you leaving this life is on them NOT on you. Shit ! You'll be dead, what'll you care ?? But the people you leave behind ARE the people that wear the brunt and the cost of you going. If you have ANYONE that you love and will be significantly hurt by you going then MAKE SURE you think it through before you do anything.
I was where you are and this aspect (that me topping myself actually impacted others - my kids - shitloads more than myself) stopped me.
This is no sermon. I don't know whether you have anyone who cares about you or not. You may decide to do something anyway.
It's your call.
But don't for a second think that noone else is affected.
Make a wise decision not a selfish one.
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