LIFE SUCKS

Figure this out!!

My wife and myself were in a car wreck 3 years ago and I lost my job because I couldn't preform at work. I did get lucky and got unemployment but now it has run out and i still can't find a job. I have child support to pay and will be going to jail soon for non-payment when there are no jobs. I have a family owned property that I could use to start a business and have tried to start 2 and have failed because i don't have any money. I have prayed and prayed and asked for forgiveness and prayed some more but it doesn't seem that god gives a fuck about me or my family. Why should they suffer it would seem that if i was in a tragic accident they would fair better than having me here. Atleast they will give them a check if im not here. I know they say you don't need money to be happy but what they don't realize is that you do need money to fucking live. You can't eat or drink love alone. I am so tired of thinking on why god hates me so much. I had given my all to him and he has turned his back on me and my family. So now i believe there is no god or atleast if there was one then he has died or moved on from us and doesnt want anything to do with us. With all of the pain and suffering he let's into this world then he no longer loves us. I am done enjoy my pain and suffering!