i know it is irrational but at the moment i am hating life more then anything else at the moment... i am 17 and a coupple of weeks off finishing school
i have no friends... i sit by my self at breaks and watch everyone one else sitting in their groups... i try to talk but i always get excluded
no one ever asks me to do anything after school or on weekends, no one ever asks me how im feeling untill i am breaking down in the middle of a crowd. i cry every day and never get much sleep... i over eat, tear scars into my face, never bother to shower, brush my teath, clean anything and have just overall given up on myself
i need a friend but the only things i have close to a friend is unknown randoms that i met over the internet
i do want to commit suicide and think about it very often... i hear voices in my head... they always tell me that i want to go home and that im a coward because i will never have the guts to kill myself
i need a home... i never feel home
i know the only reason i would ever kill myself is for atention but it is all i want right now... people to miss me... no matter how few... death always seems to multiply ones friends
my life is going nowhere... all i see right now is a pathetic girl standing on the corner of cavil ave, hopelessly trying to sell copys of the "big issue" to the masses who just dont care... who only see their own problems
people die... the human race is garanteed to extinction... its somthing that you can admit when you dont believe in anything | |