I was born a pound and a half premature baby to young parents. Medical bills were high, but they seemed to get through. Dad is a factory worker. Mom works at a bank. They divorced when I was a senior in high school, but they were always unhappy. I have never seen them happy together.
I have always been told "get an education to be a somebody". I got a degree in Education. It seemed like a great idea, but in reality it was hell. I taught half a school year, and resigned during Christmas break. So now that happened, I don't feel the motivation to teach anymore. I detest it. So, degree is worthless. Four years down the drain.
I am a virgin. I am 24. I was with a guy for exactly one month in a relationship and he broke up with me. Said he wanted to wait till he had a stable job so we could date seriously. Bull shit. Now I really feel like Im going to be alone for the rest of my life.
I do have a job, but it is temporary. Ironically, I work at a mental clinic. I interview new clients about their history. In many ways I am just like them. I truly believe that everyone in the world has problems. I wonder if God placed me here for a reason. It really feels good to help them when I feel like I did. Just knowing that you are being heard is freedom.
I am a Christian, and I believe that God helps me everyday. I challenge everyone to be thankful for the little things in life. The ability to breathe is a miracle. Sight and thinking for your own is a miracle. I ended this note different than I expected to, but I am glad. I want to encourage you if you are lonely, you are not alone. I never thought I would be where I'd be, but I am. We need to know that we don't have control over our lives. God has control over our lives. So we need to ask him to help us everyday make the right decisions for ourselves. He will guide us to his plan for us in his way if we continue to seek him and his guidance. God helps more the ones who seek him, I believe.
If you are reading this and still down, please give your worries to God and let him help you in your life. No one else can in this world. Christ is the only way.
God bless you .. and me. God has been and is my only refuge. | |
By the way, and it seems nobody has noticed, but the poster is nothing but a sham. Everything in that story is fabricated, I bet. The author is a christian missionary at best. He/she thinks he/she's doing god's work spreading the desease called christianity (or any other cult for that matter). This is how people get dragged into sects, with false promises. Believe nothing he/she sais. Religion can never improve your life. Praying will never give any results.
To the ones with positive comments, you made my whole week. Thank you.
To the others: I am not a missionary. I am just an ordinary girl. I am not appologizing for who I am or my story. It wasn't a "rant", I was just sharing a bit about my life. You could call it a vent, but I hope it inspires people to see the brighter side. Try to seek the positive. Encourage others instead of breaking them down. It will make you happier too in the long run.
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