LIFE SUCKS

I don't know

I've had an abusive single mother both physical and emotional. My mother removed me from school at the age of 9 in the fourth grade to be home schooled, what turned out to be a raise your new born brother life lesson. on top of this she had prevented me from contacting any of my friend of any one my age, one week after my 14th birthday. living in isolation for 5 years no friends no privacy living in a SMALL one room motel for 4 years to living in a RV for 3 years sharing a bed with my mother and little brother for 7 years. trying to make friends wail living on a mouton in a trailer park at the age 19 finally met some one worth dating ended up being the cause of a huge fight after 3 months of dating. I ended up moving out that night into my boyfriends.
not only my mothers crazy love hate relationship enough but now its so far into my relationship with my boyfriend that he starts treating me like im a toy lack of respect I have no job no car no phone and no near by family I live 3,000. miles away from every one I grew up knowing.
I feel alone like no one really cares no one I wish would, I cant talk to any one like a therapist cause my boyfriend in other words said he wasn't going to be with some one who can't handle there own problems.
I am manically depressed, I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder(ptsd), and anorexic.
I don't know what to do any more witch direction to go.