LIFE SUCKS

why do i feel like im being run around like a dog

Im a young guy that has good friends and it like i have to sides of me one i can trust my friends but the ether part of me is pulling me down telling me there hiding some thing from me.Every time i try to do some thing with a friend some thing comes up with family or they cant make its and that hap ins a lot and my ether side tells me its ok take it out on your self by cutting.Im a christian and i beliven GOD i go to church and thats the only time im happy and help out. I work very hard i get boss around and i take it but the ether part of me wont to tell them i dont care or ether things.I like being with my friend that is like my brother but i only tell people how i feel or tell them about the dark side when im very down and have no one there for me