I read some of these posts on here, and honestly, its a little comforting to see other people are in my same position. Its not just me....although no one should have to take comfort in our positions. I am a good looking guy, well built, with a background in fitness and personal training. Where I live, there are not many jobs or much money to be made in something I feel so passionately about. I have bounced around for years trying to get my feet firmly under me. I have had trouble holdling jobs I have no interest in other than to make money. My last job was a factory job. I got fired due to a "safey violation" because I got a papercut and went to get a bandaid when policy says I should be wearing gloves. I took them off to write while I was doing my paperwork, and got fired from a crappy job I didn't want to work anyway, but was doing it cus I needed the money. This happened 2 weeks after I went out on a date and got a dwi. I was actually not driving that night and when I saw the girl I was with was WAY to drunk to drive, I tried to sober up and take her home. I was pulled over 300 feet from her driveway. Im 32 and way to old to be getting caught up in something stupid like that anymore. After I lost my job, then I lost my car. I have terrible luck, but at least I have my shit together in my head. I now have custody of my 10 year old son because his mother does not have her head straight. I am seeing a lovely woman these days that works her ass off for all of us. But she does not make enough money to support all of us. Being a bit of a nomad until recently and moving and different jobs and now having no license or car, I am almost unhirable right now. The thing I need the most to help me start pulling my life together (a job) is exactly what I can not find. We have 2 kids in school, she works 2 jobs, and I do as much as I can to maintain the house, cooking and cleaning and mowing the yard, etc to help take as much stress of of her as I can, but what she, and we, really need right now is money that will help take the stress off our situation and relationship. I got cheated out of my unemployment, which would have been a big help, and 3800 worth of income taxes earlier in the year were taken for back debts. Nothing is ever enough. Not what I make and not what I give. It always takes more than what I have. It can always be worse, but I'm afraid we are on the path to just that if we can't get one or two things to finally go our way, and very soon. She has lived a rough life with men that have treated her poorly and taken advantage of her in the past. I really want to make sure she never sees me that way, but honestly, right now, I am leaning on her until I can start making things happen so I can repay her for what she has done for me. My dad passed away a little over 2 years ago now. It was the biggest event of my life. I have not succeeded in much in my life, and I'm not sure why. I have all the tools to be successful, yet it just hasn't happened. Among everything else, I find it a hard pill to swallow my dad died before I could do something in this life he could be proud of | |
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