LIFE SUCKS

..i lost in life..

..i'm 19 years old now and i absolutely don't know what i want in this life,what's my mission and where is my place..
when i was child i studied at school well.. (at age 12)once i decided to start playing basketball and after that day my dream was to become professional basketballer..
i tried to use all my free time for teaching basketball, so i had to gave up studying well at school.
at age 17 i have great talant..
at that time basketball was everything for me.. my life.. my dream..
and one day i got injury on my knee.. and my career had to end its future..
this was really hard for me.. i was depressed..
and then i only had to prepare for exams and go to university.. i had 1 year for that to learn everything:D herewith i started learning programming and won some competition.. and my new dream was to become programmer..
then i passed all exams well and started studying.. soon i got job which was two month deal.. then started another one.. but after several months i got some job offer with better advantages, so i agreed and moved there.. then i meet a girl which was like me, we have ton of common things.. and we fell in love with her each other.. one day she told me that she loves me but there is someone who she has some feelings and he was her old boyfriend.. and second day she sad that we wanna separate and they are conciliating.. and this was really traumatic for me.. now i work in my new work and i want to leave and run somewhere.. don't know what to do.. i almost got what i wanted but now everything changed.. everything lost meaning for me.. and i almost no have smiled face anymore..
i want to find my mind but i can't.. and i don't know what to do.. there is also many things that makes me unhappy but they all are more meaningless and i missed them.. i wish that my life changes and i find my way.. all i have now is hope..
whithout hope we are nothing.. and it's important not to forget it..
thanks..