I just recently split with my fiancee and moved out because he refused to work on fixing his bad habits such as checking out (staring at) other women in front of me in public, which was totally embarrassing and picked up smoking again. The problem is when he didn't like some of my bad habits, I respected his thinking and stopped them. I was very hurt by his selfishness. Still coping although I get that he is an idiot and there are a lot of other much more horrible things I left out because I already feel so stupid describing just those few, believing that he would make that change for me, like I actually thought I was important enough to him. I wasted 3 years. Living alonenow sucks. I have good friends but they are all mostly very much immersed in their own lives with kids, families, boyfriends/girlfriends...so I feel so alone. My other stupid problem is that I absolutely hate my boss and the bitch under him that is so threatened by me that she has to push me around. I can defend myself... but tsunami like why in he hell should I have to in the first place? He work environment as you can see is not ideal. They both micromanage, and he worst part is that I have to report to both of them. What the hell for? I don't hate my job. I just hate the few people I work with. I really want to strangle them sometimes. Just tell them off and tell them go to hell. Since my life is consumed by my job at 50 hours a week on very crappy pay, I have nobody, my parents don't know how to help me... I just feel so alone. My life just sucks. I'm doing everything to turn it around... like finding another job but his economy sucks so bad, that I haven't been able to find one, the lonely part, I'm just feeling that all good men are taken. the ones leftover are probably losers. | |
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It sounds like you were trying to make him happy. It's a shame he couldn't do the same for you. What would make you happy?
Are there any closer friends you confide your loneliness to? Perhaps you could meet up with at least one friend, every week? (to do something together, something that provides quality and sincere bonding and connecting).
What about new hobbies, thought of trying any?
I know you're hurting, but don't give up. There are many great men out there. Make yourself happy first.
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