All i want is to fell loved not only love from a girl but by people in general , and i just can't have it because of the way i am, i am a nice person when i have the chanse i try so hard to make people feel good around me but im so shy and unsocial that i allways ruin it by sounding low and nervous. i think im so ugly and fat that some times at school i try to cover my face and body by touching my face all the time wich makes me look weird the sad thing is that im not even that fat and compared to other people im not that ugly i just cant help thinking about it wich it sucks bad cuz i cant change what i think there's something wrong with me. I cant never blend in any where cause i am not into wat most people of my age are into like music, be into cars, or stupid mtv shows , its not me, its like i wasnt supposed to born for this generation. Worst part of my life is that my 16 years old sister is popular and brings her friends to the house with her all the time so i cant even be in peace at my own home, allways trying not to be weird but thats not going to happen, when she troughs partys i just plan to stay in my room that has no lock so when people trys to get in they could see me there which makes me hide in the closet, there with my 60s music and pain i fall asleep making my mother cry when she checks on me the next mornig and founds me sleeping in there like a freak that doesn't want to be seen and i guess she just wonders what she did wrong to deserve me.im a good student but so unsocial that i just think college is going to be a waste of time cuz come on who wants to hire a person that cant even comunicated with other people? It just suck to be a piece of sht.... | |