LIFE SUCKS

Hey man We have quite a bit in common although I have a younger sister aged 10. She is really popular and happy but she whines a lot.

If you wanna talk, then come contact me on Youtube.

My YouTube username is LBP2FORTHEWIN

By my channel I seem a happy person but yeh whatever.

Talk to me. Please.

Dude, don't worry. It could be worse. I go to a pretty prestigious school (RPI), studying IT information systems, which basically covers the majority of the computer science curriculum, which, yeah, so IT isn't so easy, cut-and-dry. Anyway, I'm now a sophomore, and still feel totally new this environment, having never programmed before nor understood any technical aspects to anything, I just went into a field that involved logic and a profound understanding of something that requires exceptional thinking. I'm enamored by computer science, but yet don't have the right frame of mind. I'm still trying to get a grip of higher level programming, but can't even get the basics so fast. It's a totally new way of thinking. I'm getting there, but you can see why it was such a shock for me. I was so involved music, and always considered myself more of a language guy, given my ability to write pretty well. So, I came to a school where I knew that I'd be churned out with a job. The inadequacy that I feel here, though, sucks. Like, knowing that pretty much everyone did better than me on my SAT's, and that I really did do well and could've done better, had I taken it more than once.. But I feel so underneath other people, here. It sucks. Then, not to mention my crazy relationship. I feel like she's the only friend I have, which I usually have no concrete/bestfriend relationship when I go anywhere- high school, college, etc. I feel like I co-mix in a bunch of groups that don't give me a second thoughts. At college, I'm in a fraternity, which to me was like having to buy friends because I knew there was no other way for me to find someone just like me, weird as I am. So, I suck socially here, and back at home I just have a few friends who are sort of morons and beneath me, surprisingly. I'm in a relationship with a fundamentalist tree-hugger that does everything naturally. Oh, did I mention that she's gluten-intolerant, a vegetarian, and doesn't eat sugar much because of a suspected congenital heart-defect. It's hard as fuck because she has random mood swings. She has a horrible relationship with her estranged mother who post-mortem and used to beat her kids, even though they weren't whitetrash; they were white-collar professionals. Just a mom with some psychosis, which I suspect might ingrained into her genetics, WHICH WOULD SUCK. I feel like I can't take it sometimes, so I'm eating more and getting high to escape reality even though I have it so well. But, I can't stand my imperfections and my situation, enough, sometimes.

sRu11G I appreciate you sharing this blog.Really thank you!